Hello few people who read this, finally I've been able to update a journal. I've been so busy with college and getting used to this new life that I haven't had time to write anything in the journal for months. But I finally have found sometime to sit down and write something. So this is gonna be pretty long.

Why did I say new life when I talked about college? Because technically for me, my life has change. Okay, every one's life change when they move to college one way or another, but someone's people's life change more than others. See, most of my friends went to the UPR in Rio Piedras, wich isn't that far away from their homes, or their high school, however, I went to the UPR in Mayaguez which is an 3:00 hours ride from my home. Therefor, I have to get an apartment there. That's why for me life has completely change. And I have to admit, it's what I always wanted, but of course, there it has it bad sides.

One of them it's that none of my close friends move here, therefor I had to start over. When I first came, I felt terribly alone, and i wondered if this was really a path I should take. I'm not good at making new friends, that's why I'm really gratefully for the ones I have. Luckily, I met some new awesome people here in the orientation for freshmen, and we have gotten along well. I'll admit, I still my friends terribly, and all the crazy stuff we used to do, but we keep in touch from time to time.

Another thing that has been hard for me has been the classes, and I think for many students too. Now I know what they mean college life is hard and different, cause it's so true. I have never been so pack up with stuff before, and so challenging. I'm recently frustrated cause I got a C in a Pre-calculus test, after I study so hard for it. I'm frustrated at myself because I forget things easily, and because students smarter than me probably had better grades with less studying.DX Also,I'm failing Chemistry and Chemistry lab (Curse them both to hell!) I mean, I never had a C as an average in a class, and I never hated a class with so much passion as I do now. Oh well, there is always a first time. At least what keeps me from giving a mental tantrum are the other classes which I'm not doing so bad. English i have an A, and so In Engineering graphics.Man that class is awesome! I completely love it, and the instructor is very nice. I mean he's teaching us how to do 3d objects in auto cad!!!It's so cool .

Moving from the mopey stuff, now I'm gonna go to the fun things. Just as I'd never had a C as an average, I'd never had the change to go the theater that much. I go like at least once every week, and it's really cheap XD. I have also went to dance and whatnot, and it's been really fun. I don't drink, cause I don't like it, but I don't find anything wrong with dancing.XD

Let see... what else...hmmm... oh yeah! my love life! wait...what love life? XDD. The closest thing to romance is that I had crush in one my male friends, and I'm completely pissed at myself for it. I hadn't a crush like this for a long time, and I feel sooo pathetic. I have completely lose my time with it. I'm starting to stop seeing him that way,to just see him as a friend, cause that's the way I know he sees,and he likes someone else. Anyway,I don't have time for a guy,especially when he ignores me. I gotten myself so ridiculous disappointed over it, and I'm trying to wake up from Stupidly-in-love landia. Aghhhhh. Oh well, it's better not to rush things. Anyway, i have seen a LOT of hot guys in college, and even though I don't know them and I probably never will, there's nothing wrong with enjoying, right? Like my lab partner, he's VERY hot.


I'm sorry if I had complain a lot, I just needed to let it all out somehow. So the conclusion in all of this is, freedom comes with a price.


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I know I haven't upload since summer but before saying how's my life on college I want to say something first. My stepmother's father died. Now I'm not gonna say I'm depressed bacouse I'm not. Strangely I don't know how to feel, it's like I feel neutral or nothing...and it scares me. I feel guilty that I don't feel even a little sad. I know she's wasn't my grandmother by blood, but she was there more than my real grandmothers. Even if I don't like my stepfather, my stepfather's family is more family to me than my real family from both parts.

We did know that she was gonna die soon. She had an advance diabities and she already had an amputed leg. She was really in a lot of suffering. It's better now because she's finally in peace. Still when mommy give me the news I admit it was unexpected. I was on Mayaguez and I call her, and I notice she was really sad, so I ask her what was wrong. Then she told me and I gasped. I had planed to go to the mall on Friday with some of my friends but I had to cancelled it.

So I went to the funerary and hang around with my cousins. We were just talking normally and laughing, that was until we went to see her. That's when my causin broke down and start crying. It made feel really bad from him, and I was about to cry to, but I didn't. I mean is it cold for me to feel this way? I feel guilty. Maybe it is that I haven't quite processed it yet. I don't know if I want to go when they buried her, it would be so sad.

This has me thinking of how people died everyday, but the world keeps on going. We're just a little part of that big cycle that goes round and round. I want to write this on my "grandmother's" memory. It just a little journal and a wepage, but it'something.

To Dona Ester:
Even though you're not here with us anymore I know you're in abetter place. You we're no my grandmother realated by blood, but you were more of a grandmother to me than my real grandmothers. Thanks to you, I know more or less the love of a grandmother. I truly appriciate it. So for now, may you rest in peace and watch us from above.
-Grace

To my causin I dedicate this excerpt from the song Cassie by Flyleaf( I would dedicate the whole song, but I don't think it's appropiate).
" ...Don't be shock that people die, be surpise you're still alive..."

That'll be all. I feel so much better now that I share this. Thanks for reading.

PS. Does anyone knows any good song I could dedicate to her? The ones I know are a bit...dark...

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I saw the movie Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince and I have to say it was the best movie yet!!! I love the specials effects, the acting, the background, everything. Maybe I wasn't so pissed because I read the 6xth book a long time ago, and I didn't remembered it in detail.

I really like that they tried to stay as loyal as the book as possible. I understand that that they can't put everything that's on the book on ihe movies, so I know I can't ask for perfect. However, you can see that on the movie they really tried to make the fans happy. They put all the important information and scenes on the movie. They also make it more dark, which is the reality of The Wizard World on the 6xth book.

I'm disappointed that they didn't gave that many scenes to Luna Lovegood, since she's my favorite character. However, I do admit she isn't that relevant on the 6xth book. I also wanted to see more of the relationship within Tonks and lupin. (sigh) The only cue they gave us on the movie that they were together was when Tonka said "What is it Sweetheart?" That was cute. I hope they put a little more of them in the seventh movie.

What really tick me was the end. I'm not gonna spoil what happen, but I do thing that they should have played a little more like the book. I found what they did, kinda stupid, I'm sure other fans that haven't read the book feel the same way.

At the end I give it a 4 out 5. And I'm being generous 'cause I like the series. I wonder how other critics found it?

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OMG! I juts saw the Avatar movie trailer! I really don't know how to feel, excited or scared. I think I'm feeling a little bit of both. here's the trailer for those who haven't seen it: [link]
I mean, I know the series ended like a year or so, but I got hook to them recently. There's wasn't much to do here, so i decided to watch. I already watch the finale. I really like Avatar, it's funny, and has good special effects, and I fall in love with the character Zuko.

For one, I'm really really REALLY relieved that they change the actor that was going to play Zuko. I mean, who on the right mind chooses Jesse McCartney? To act in a series that's supposed to represent Asian Culture? The director got criticized because he was choosing a white cast for that series. At least he had decency to change Zuko's actor for Dev Patel, which seems like a much better choice.

However, what ticks me is they chose such white actors for Sokka and Katara! I mean I have nothing against white folks, but the tribe from the Water Nation are very tan!! Jackson Rathbone (Vampire Jasper from Twilight)is gonna be act Sokka and Nicola Peltz(God knows where she comes from) is gonna act Katara. They're as white as snow!! I hope they at least make them have a tan...and they play the characters good. Oh with Aang I have no problem, it's some chinese kid I have never seen before, but he seems to represent the character good, at least physically. I do think they might make be to serious, I don't maybe to show discipline, but Aang is clearly a a kid that likes to goof around and have fun. Oh well.

So, the movies is due to come 2010. I hope they're at least at bit loyal, and they don't screw up as much as they did with Dragon Ball movie. I don't about other places, but at least in Puerto Rico it didn't last more than two weeks. Thankfully it isn't the same director. Us fans will wait for it bitings our nails...

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Man, now I know why people get so frustrated when they're hunting for jobs. I've been looking for a job here on Maryland since I arrive the past week. Man, I haven't got squat! I mean I have apply like for 8 stores and nothing! I have answer about 400 questions online. I'm not kidding. The Macy's questionnaire had about 200 questions, man was that tiring... It's probably because I don't have much experience, but hey, I can't get it if they don't give it to me!

The only one I got called back was for a job in Hallmark Stores, and when the woman told me what I had to do, I have to say it didn't sound very appealing for me. I mean, I know I can't be greedy, but she mention something about Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm not gonna be here on Thanksgiving. In the end, I don't think I did very well on the phone interview anyway. It was my first interview ever, and I was kinda nervous, even on the phone. Oh well, I'm not gonna be that disappointed if I don't get it.

Yesterday I went to a mall with my dad to see if any stores where hiring. So far I found two, Pac Sun and Game Stop, so I fill in the applications. It would be really cool if I got call in at Game Stop, but I can't get my hopes too up, I don't want to get disappointed ...again. Man I really wanted to get that job on Borders or Target, I would enjoy the benefits (sigh).

I'm gonna keep looking, I guess I have no other options. I know I'm complaining, but I just wanted to get this out of my chest. I hope perseverance paids out for something. At least ONE job has to turn at, and is only one I need.

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